I think I'll go fishing on Wednesday!
On Wednesday at 10:00 am, I’ll be meeting with Martha, the Volunteer Coordinator, and Catherine from I.T. Support at FISH, Inc. I’m excited but also a little nervous about the tech side—it's been a long time since I've worked with Access databases. I’ll keep an open mind, but I’m not looking to dive into any coding or risk altering anything that might compromise their data. It’ll be a good learning experience regardless.
Yesterday, I texted with my significant other, who shared that her eye condition has worsened, and she’ll be seeing a surgeon today. I hope she knows how deeply I care and that if it were possible, I’d go in her place. I prayed for her safety last night—the first time I’ve prayed in years. While she finds comfort in daily prayer, I’ve never had that habit. Growing up, prayer wasn’t something that was shown or explained to me, just a part of Sunday school, assumed but never instilled.
Reflecting on these past eighteen days, I realize how lost I’ve felt. A deep-seated protective instinct flared up in me, catching me off guard. We all carry triggers from our past—hers linked to running out of gas in West Virginia, mine dating back to a day when my mother, shaken and in tears after a near miss with a train, broke down on the side of the road. I remember holding her there, feeling helpless under the gaze of passing strangers, unsure how to help.
Please, send a thought or a prayer for my friend today, wishing her strength and healing. Even small acts of positive thought can make a difference in difficult times.
You once asked why I share my feelings so openly here. It’s my way of showing love for you, no different than if I were to say my vows in front of friends and family. This is my space, a place where I can express myself, and I don’t mind what others think. If my posts don’t resonate with someone, they’re welcome to read other blogs. These words are for you, and my love remains constant.
During our trip, you shared something so beautiful and trusting that it’s stayed with me every day since. I won’t write it here—it’s too personal. But those words were unlike anything anyone has ever said to me, and I will never forget them. If we’re able to work through our differences, I’ll remind you of what you said, or I can text it to you now if you'd like. That kind of trust is rare, and I want to honor it. I know I have work to do to regain that trust, and I’m committed to taking the actions necessary to prove it. I love you, Tink. Today, I’m with you in every way that matters. Even if I can’t be there beside you, know that I am there in spirit, always with you, every step of the way.